i feel betrayed by my own ipod whenever shuffle mode plays Never Gonna Give You Up.
but in the words of a wisebag also known as Syee, i just let my hands mambo away.

my hamster is never gonna give up... annoying me. snooki is running around in her cage and it's kinda noisy......... she broke the hamsterball you know! how the fuck is it even possible for her tiny ass to break a big sphere made out of hard pink plastic? please explain. she is fucking insane afterdark. what did i get myself into.

agnes never gave up on tap tap, and now she's playing extreme. she came over today to meet mama about some lesson plan watchamacallits. when they started talking about teacher stuff i just upped and left the table. after that snore bore was over we played guitar hero until she had to leave. k lah first timers always feel that way, but really you just need to be a bit cocky and ambitious and confident to try a higher difficulty! everything will smoothen out after practice!

school is never gonna give me up. come on man when is e-learning week, i need a free thursday. it kills me that half the youth of singapore is out on ladies night listening to bad music in a crowded room with horrible lighting every wednesday hahahahaha. 

i'm never gonna give glue up. i need ideas for valentine's day arts and craft.
gonna visit cut out + keep now.

 

papa looks for his medicine baggie, finds it, brings it to breakfast table.

papa: tengok ni. look at my medicine. look at this.
me: wah. why so much seh?
papa: ask the doctor. ask him, why he can't give me one pill for everything.
me: papa. just eat laaaaa. why so hard
papa: nilah, you should never be a doctor when you grow up. don't go and make people suffer like this.
me: just eat.
papa: astaghfirullah (some kinda muslimprayer thing)

words of wisdom from a man who loves jalapeno bagels more than hamsters.

Nilah says: (11:10:08 PM)
HELLO
Nilah says: (11:10:10 PM)
HELLo
Nilah says: (11:10:12 PM)
HELLO
Nilah says: (11:10:13 PM)
HELLO
Nilah says: (11:10:15 PM)
HELLO
Loo says: (11:11:10 PM)
eh sorrz doing work
Loo says: (11:11:11 PM)
sup?
Nilah says: (11:11:45 PM)
THE POSDER
Nilah says: (11:11:47 PM)
*powder
Nilah says: (11:11:54 PM)
that the smoek monster cannot cross
Nilah says: (11:11:57 PM)
remember?
Loo says: (11:12:14 PM)
yea?
Nilah says: (11:12:17 PM)
THE SAME POWDER SURROUNDS THE CABIN
Nilah says: (11:12:20 PM)
FUCK
Loo says: (11:12:26 PM)
OMF
Loo says: (11:12:34 PM)
OH YA
Loo says: (11:12:37 PM)
OMG
Nilah says: (11:12:37 PM)
RIGHT?
Loo says: (11:12:39 PM)
WHOA
Loo says: (11:12:40 PM)
YES
Nilah says: (11:12:46 PM)
FUCKKKK FINALLY ONE ANSWER
Loo says: (11:12:47 PM)
BUT SOMEONE WENT TO SMEAR IT RIGHT
Nilah says: (11:12:50 PM)
YEAH
Loo says: (11:12:52 PM)
SO SMOKEY GOT OUT RIGHT
Loo says: (11:12:54 PM)
FUCK
Nilah says: (11:13:04 PM)
MOTHERFUCKING HELL
Loo says: (11:13:13 PM)
WHO THE FUCK DID IT
Loo says: (11:13:29 PM)
SCARY
Nilah says: (11:14:03 PM)
YAH WHO THE FUCK IS IN CAHOOTS WITH SMOKE MONSTER
Nilah says: (11:14:09 PM)
SLASH FLOCKE
Loo says: (11:14:45 PM)
NO I REMEMBERED SOMEONE DID IT ACCIDENTALLY
Loo says: (11:15:08 PM)
AS IN I REMEMBER A CHARACTER DISCOVERED THAT LINE OF POWDER AND USED HIS/HER SHOE TO SMEAR IT OR SUMMAT
Loo says: (11:15:13 PM)
LIKE TOTALLY NORMAL
Nilah says: (11:15:29 PM)
OH SHI-
Nilah says: (11:15:37 PM)
I NEED TO WATCH AGAIN LEH HOW
Loo says: (11:15:45 PM)
GO LOAD LAH
Loo says: (11:16:02 PM)
I NEED TO CONTINUE MY COSTUME
Nilah says: (11:16:09 PM)
I MEAN
Nilah says: (11:16:21 PM)
I NEED TO WATCH THE ACCIDENTAL SMEARING OF THE WHITE ASH EPISODE
Loo says: (11:16:47 PM)
IDK WHICH EPISODE THAT IS
Nilah says: (11:17:23 PM)
OH MA GAWWWWDDDDD
Loo says: (11:17:44 PM)
SHOULD HAVE PAID ATTENTION TO LITTLE DETAILS LIKE THAT
Loo says: (11:17:56 PM)
NOW THE QN IS
Loo says: (11:18:01 PM)
WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT POWDER
Nilah says: (11:19:36 PM)
idk.

IT'S FULL OF SO MUCH BARNUM BULLSHIT
for example, from quizbox.com:

You:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


and i say this makes the internet suck because it's true, i fell for it a lot. 
agnes is still sleeping and i dont know if i should wake her up to tell her that i have to get ready for school in 23 seconds.

i dont even know if i printed the notes correctly because yes im such an ass for making my friends print for me all the time.
okay 9 seconds up im gonna wake her up now. what method should i use to wake her up though? i think i'm gonna sit on the floor by her bedside with my face directly facing hers then im going to poke her and she's going to wake up annoyed : )

23 seconds are up!
see you later mighty morphers

 hi livejournal friends, i'm such an ass for abandoning this little piece of shit blog that i've had for quite some time. 
i really really really really can't go back to typing here when my brain is so fixed on the 140 characters or less limit on twitter.

i'm in agnes' room and she's telling me that primary school teachers are sneaky bitches because of the way they teach little kids. they're sneaky bitches because they have all sorts of strategies to get the attention of the students without making it seem obvs. whoa. idk, all i cared about back then were the pretty little pictures in storybooks, and the usual Ahmad, Bala, Ali and John quarelling over the number of sweets in math questions. our textbooks now obvs don't appeal to me anymore. i think the paragraphs in my textbooks look like the pavement by the street. grey grey grey FUCKING monotonous flat panel that goes on and on and on and on into oblivion. agnes says hi, by the way.

so sem2 started a while back, and i've got 21 AUs down. highlight of this sem: Chinese Level 1. i made this bet with myself, that if by the time i'm done with HMC 1 and i still don't  feel malay, then something is up. fucking trivial racial bullshit, i know. but i just don't feel malay at all. okay my love for hari raya is an exception lah. so, during this time, i will try to exert some minah-ness into my lifestyle, starting with the language, like "ah ah sial" and all that shite. i won't go so far as to pluck my eyebrows, no.

school is alright, i keep up with readings, but i kinda skipped one lecture for long john's, and one tutorial to give blood. i'm having less trouble sleeping since im so tired by the end of the day that i conk out very easily. like last night, i was already asleep by 10:30pm and apparently agnes walked into the room and got on my bed AND TALKED TO ME and i responded but i woke up thinking it was a dream... 

school is alright.

we saw bruegel paintings yesterday and they freak the fuck out of me a little bit. i need to pray to god. bruegel must be laughing in his grave now.

okay, i really dislike blogging now but i will try harder next time. gonna watch mean girls k? agnes asking me to hurry up la.

1.  denial
2. guilt
3. anger and bargaining
4. depression and loneliness
5. the upward turn (the stage that didnt happen)
6. reconstruction and working through
7. acceptance and hope

hello 2010 : )

DAMN AFRICA, WHAT HAPPENED?

I DON'T GIVE A DAMN

: )

i guess i kinda forgot what being with my family for an extended period of time was like
okay im going to spend my next 24 minutes on tumblr.
onascaleof.tumblr.com
see you soon singapore

ps
i need a haircut stat.

well come on

Khai: Ok.. This would be weird but do you know if any shop in jp sells stockings/leggings?
Me: YES VERY WEIRD. Try watsons for stockings. Are you robbing a fucking bank?

i know these thoughts and sentences literally don't make sense. i try to make sentences make sense all day but sometimes i'm tired, and feel stupid

selamat hari raya haji?